My journey of A lifetime has become my journey of MY lifetime. I have been literally going back through my life and deconstructing the God I grew up with and rebuilding my beliefs with the God I have come to know. I am currently in my cousin’s house in Hot Springs Village. It’s on theContinue reading “Journey of a Lifetime-Part 7”
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Journey of a Lifetime- Part 2
Before I move on to discussing my journey, I want to say that I’ve had a few women contact me about the last post, about growing up in purity culture and with church being centered on rules and laws, rather than love and forgiveness. Today, we know the damage it caused to tell young peopleContinue reading “Journey of a Lifetime- Part 2”
Journey of a lifetime- Part 1
I am on Sabbatical. Two days ago, I left my home in South Carolina and headed west. I am currently at my bestie’s house in Fort Worth, TX but will be leaving here soon to continue my journey. For the past decade, my life has been filled with incredibly painful events and beautiful, joyous occasions.Continue reading “Journey of a lifetime- Part 1”
Perfect Love
It’s been one year since I discovered that the man I was in a relationship with was also dating another woman. One year since I began my trip down a rabbit hole trying to figure out what had happened and what kind of man I had been seeing. One year since I began the journeyContinue reading “Perfect Love”
The Joy of Uncertainty
My youngest son and I recently came back from a vacation to the west coast. We were gone for two weeks visiting San Francisco and then going hiking in some of the National Parks. We went to Yosemite, Redwood, and Crater Lake. We had the most amazing time, and I came back not just refreshed,Continue reading “The Joy of Uncertainty”
Joy or Shame? You can’t have both
Yesterday morning I had an epiphany. I’m sure I’m not the first to realize this, but since it helped me immensely, I want to share it so maybe it can help others who don’t know. If you grew up in church or are now in church, you have most likely learned that sin separates usContinue reading “Joy or Shame? You can’t have both”
Love Me?
Healing from my abuse journey has been long. It’s taken me far longer than I originally thought it would. As I work through each step and heal from it, a deeper level is revealed to me. Through it all has been an undercurrent of what I knew I would always have to get to- myContinue reading “Love Me?”
Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2
I have worked hard and been through a lot of pain and tears to learn these lessons. I have had to let go of a lot of my own control issues and the attachment I had to each partner. I’m still working on the attachment with the most recent one. He was the covert narcissistContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2”
Lessons I’ve Learned Part 1
I went to the Smokey Mountains last weekend. I needed to get away from here and have some space and time to think and spend time with God. I have struggled so much with the realization that I had been the target of a narcissist, two of them. I finally took some time to goContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 1”
My Testimony
My life has been an emotional roller coaster for the past couple months. I’m not yet ready, not sure if I will ever be ready, to share all that has been going on, but I do want to talk about all I have learned in the process of all the hurt and pain. I’ve alwaysContinue reading “My Testimony”
Finding The Good 