My journey of A lifetime has become my journey of MY lifetime. I have been literally going back through my life and deconstructing the God I grew up with and rebuilding my beliefs with the God I have come to know. I am currently in my cousin’s house in Hot Springs Village. It’s on theContinue reading “Journey of a Lifetime-Part 7”
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2024 out, 2025 in!
2024 went by so fast! It was a hard year with a lot of lessons, a lot of really big changes, and a lot of joy. December of 2023, I said I wanted to make 2024 the year of me. I was going to focus on my needs and learning who I am and unlearningContinue reading “2024 out, 2025 in!”
I’m Free
Lately I’ve been so incredibly emotional. It’s like it’s finally sunk in that I am free of all the control, abuse, and manipulation. I’m not having to be a grown man’s mother, therapist, and maid. I don’t have to listen to a grown man complain, whine, or berate me over some perceived grievance. I don’tContinue reading “I’m Free”
On Second Thought…
I’ve been thinking about what I wrote in my last post. I think that it’s not that I didn’t love myself, but maybe something much deeper. Before I met my now ex husband, I was very happy, independent, and genuinely looking forward to following my dreams and making the most of my life. I wasContinue reading “On Second Thought…”
New Lesson Unlocked!
I went out with some friends last night to a Journey tribute band concert. We had such a great time singing along to every song. After the concert, we stopped at a club to listen to another band. I had a very eye-opening experience there. We had a couple men come up to us, offerContinue reading “New Lesson Unlocked!”
Identifying Emotions
I have been hard-pressed fo find a name for how I feel about what I went through in this last relationship. I had been using the word sad, but that didn’t feel quite right. Angry yes, but I know anger is just a broad word we use for many emotions. Angry by itself just didn’tContinue reading “Identifying Emotions”
It’s me
UPDATE: I wrote this post before I realized that the man I had been dating was actually a covert narcissist. He was cheating on me and extremely emotionally abusive during this time. When I go back and read this, I realize that my body was telling me to run because it knew I was inContinue reading “It’s me”
To Trust or Not?
DISCLAIMER: This post is no way blaming my parents for any of the choices I have made. It is just a walk through of how I viewed and internalized some things from my childhood. I didn’t deal with them in a healthy manner, which led me to accepting the poor behaviors of my ex. I’veContinue reading “To Trust or Not?”
Quick Update
It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. In all honesty, things have been really hard and really good. I finished my twelve step study at my church’s Celebrate Recovery program. It took over a year and is probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through, but I learned a lot about myselfContinue reading “Quick Update”
Finding The Good 