My journey of A lifetime has become my journey of MY lifetime. I have been literally going back through my life and deconstructing the God I grew up with and rebuilding my beliefs with the God I have come to know. I am currently in my cousin’s house in Hot Springs Village. It’s on theContinue reading “Journey of a Lifetime-Part 7”
Tag Archives: peace
2024 out, 2025 in!
2024 went by so fast! It was a hard year with a lot of lessons, a lot of really big changes, and a lot of joy. December of 2023, I said I wanted to make 2024 the year of me. I was going to focus on my needs and learning who I am and unlearningContinue reading “2024 out, 2025 in!”
Facing Reality
Eleven months ago, I decided to make my fiftieth year, the year of me. It’s been a very eye-opening year, and I’ve had to face some hard truths. I think the biggest one has been that I allowed the man I dated (let’s call him Dan) to manipulate me. For a short time, I wantedContinue reading “Facing Reality”
Perfect Love
It’s been one year since I discovered that the man I was in a relationship with was also dating another woman. One year since I began my trip down a rabbit hole trying to figure out what had happened and what kind of man I had been seeing. One year since I began the journeyContinue reading “Perfect Love”
Joy or Shame? You can’t have both
Yesterday morning I had an epiphany. I’m sure I’m not the first to realize this, but since it helped me immensely, I want to share it so maybe it can help others who don’t know. If you grew up in church or are now in church, you have most likely learned that sin separates usContinue reading “Joy or Shame? You can’t have both”
Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2
I have worked hard and been through a lot of pain and tears to learn these lessons. I have had to let go of a lot of my own control issues and the attachment I had to each partner. I’m still working on the attachment with the most recent one. He was the covert narcissistContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2”
The Search for Truly Living
We live in a world that glorifies immediate gratification, pride, opportunistic behaviors, and perceived perfection. We want a job that makes us a lot of money right out of college. We want our packages tomorrow, or even today. We want to be respected and acknowledged for every good deed or work we have done. WeContinue reading “The Search for Truly Living”
Rest
In my quest for joy, I have discovered how much I long to just rest. I don’t mean that I need a nap or some deep breathing; I need emotional rest. I need the ability to just let go and have someone else be in charge. I am just so tired of always having toContinue reading “Rest”
My Plan vs Reality
I’ve been really struggling the past few days. I know I lost a lot with my ex-husband’s affair and our divorce, but I’m usually really good about focusing on the future and the possibilities that lie ahead. I had a reminder this weekend that sometimes our losses are far greater than we initially realize. SomeContinue reading “My Plan vs Reality”
Goodness of God
I sang this song at my mom’s funeral. It took me a while to really understand the words to this song. I know that my mom believed God was good through everything that happened, but I had doubts for a few years. How could any of the things I went through ever be made good?Continue reading “Goodness of God”
Finding The Good 