2024 went by so fast! It was a hard year with a lot of lessons, a lot of really big changes, and a lot of joy. December of 2023, I said I wanted to make 2024 the year of me. I was going to focus on my needs and learning who I am and unlearningContinue reading “2024 out, 2025 in!”
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Facing Reality
Eleven months ago, I decided to make my fiftieth year, the year of me. It’s been a very eye-opening year, and I’ve had to face some hard truths. I think the biggest one has been that I allowed the man I dated (let’s call him Dan) to manipulate me. For a short time, I wantedContinue reading “Facing Reality”
Perfect Love
It’s been one year since I discovered that the man I was in a relationship with was also dating another woman. One year since I began my trip down a rabbit hole trying to figure out what had happened and what kind of man I had been seeing. One year since I began the journeyContinue reading “Perfect Love”
Joy or Shame? You can’t have both
Yesterday morning I had an epiphany. I’m sure I’m not the first to realize this, but since it helped me immensely, I want to share it so maybe it can help others who don’t know. If you grew up in church or are now in church, you have most likely learned that sin separates usContinue reading “Joy or Shame? You can’t have both”
I’m Free
Lately I’ve been so incredibly emotional. It’s like it’s finally sunk in that I am free of all the control, abuse, and manipulation. I’m not having to be a grown man’s mother, therapist, and maid. I don’t have to listen to a grown man complain, whine, or berate me over some perceived grievance. I don’tContinue reading “I’m Free”
To Be Seen
“There is an epidemic of not being seen….It’s more and more difficult to stand out. It’s more and more difficult to be special, more and more difficult to be unique. We are not seen.” ~Sam Vaknin We live in world of so many lost people who are not being seen. I know many women whoContinue reading “To Be Seen”
On Second Thought…
I’ve been thinking about what I wrote in my last post. I think that it’s not that I didn’t love myself, but maybe something much deeper. Before I met my now ex husband, I was very happy, independent, and genuinely looking forward to following my dreams and making the most of my life. I wasContinue reading “On Second Thought…”
Love Me?
Healing from my abuse journey has been long. It’s taken me far longer than I originally thought it would. As I work through each step and heal from it, a deeper level is revealed to me. Through it all has been an undercurrent of what I knew I would always have to get to- myContinue reading “Love Me?”
Fortitude
I beat myself up for a bit about being fooled again by a man who was manipulating me. It was the realization that I once again put my trust in someone who was just lying to me that made me so angry at myself. I really thought I had worked through the biggest bulk ofContinue reading “Fortitude”
New Lesson Unlocked!
I went out with some friends last night to a Journey tribute band concert. We had such a great time singing along to every song. After the concert, we stopped at a club to listen to another band. I had a very eye-opening experience there. We had a couple men come up to us, offerContinue reading “New Lesson Unlocked!”
Finding The Good 