I’ve been thinking about what I wrote in my last post. I think that it’s not that I didn’t love myself, but maybe something much deeper. Before I met my now ex husband, I was very happy, independent, and genuinely looking forward to following my dreams and making the most of my life. I wasContinue reading “On Second Thought…”
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New Lesson Unlocked!
I went out with some friends last night to a Journey tribute band concert. We had such a great time singing along to every song. After the concert, we stopped at a club to listen to another band. I had a very eye-opening experience there. We had a couple men come up to us, offerContinue reading “New Lesson Unlocked!”
Fifty
Tomorrow is my fiftieth birthday. I don’t know how it got here so fast. There were supposed to be big plans, a trip, but all that fell apart. My friends got busy, my relationship ended, and I discovered he’s a narcissist. Definitely not the birthday I had thought it would be. Even with the disappointments,Continue reading “Fifty”
Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2
I have worked hard and been through a lot of pain and tears to learn these lessons. I have had to let go of a lot of my own control issues and the attachment I had to each partner. I’m still working on the attachment with the most recent one. He was the covert narcissistContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2”
Healing 2.0
As I sit here doing my favorite fall Sunday activity (watching my Cowboys play), I have been struggling. These past weeks have involved a lot of unpacking the baggage in my life, some baggage I didn’t even realize I had until the ending of my recent relationship. I did so much work after my ex’sContinue reading “Healing 2.0”
It’s me
UPDATE: I wrote this post before I realized that the man I had been dating was actually a covert narcissist. He was cheating on me and extremely emotionally abusive during this time. When I go back and read this, I realize that my body was telling me to run because it knew I was inContinue reading “It’s me”
The Search for Truly Living
We live in a world that glorifies immediate gratification, pride, opportunistic behaviors, and perceived perfection. We want a job that makes us a lot of money right out of college. We want our packages tomorrow, or even today. We want to be respected and acknowledged for every good deed or work we have done. WeContinue reading “The Search for Truly Living”
Thanksgiving
I began my journey of attempting to be more grateful during the middle of my Celebrate Recovery step study about a year ago. Whenever I begin to feel down about what I’ve lost, missed out on, or never had, I just think of my small group leader reminding me to turn to my Gratitude List. Continue reading “Thanksgiving”
Too Much or Too Little?
I want to talk about a topic that is often only used to describe the actions of women. I want to discuss withholding, a term used mainly to describe women using sex as manipulation in a relationship. But I want to discuss what I feel is the much bigger issue of withholding. The emotional withholdingContinue reading “Too Much or Too Little?”
Letting Go
In just one week, I will have been divorced for a year. It’s been an exceptionally hard year and a really great one. I don’t know how both those statements can be true, but they are. I’ve had to let go of so much this past year- my desire to keep my family intact, theContinue reading “Letting Go”
Finding The Good 