I lost friends when my husband had an affair. I lose a few more when I divorced him. The pain of losing people I thought would be my support, hurt nearly as bad as the pain of my husband’s betrayal. I was angry and hurt by them pulling away when I needed them most. IContinue reading “The Value of Friendship”
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Goodness of God
I sang this song at my mom’s funeral. It took me a while to really understand the words to this song. I know that my mom believed God was good through everything that happened, but I had doubts for a few years. How could any of the things I went through ever be made good?Continue reading “Goodness of God”
Love and Respect
I’ve learned a lot this past year- about myself and relationships. I’ve always known that I desired a relationship like my parents had. One of mutual love and respect for themselves and each other. They made choices that were what was best for their marriage and ignored the standards that society set for marriage andContinue reading “Love and Respect”
Reflections
“Time heals all wounds.” That can be true, but it depends on what we do with that time. If we just sit in our hurts, they don’t heal. We have to commit to actions that promote healing. In my case, I needed space to think and work on myself. I needed to see where IContinue reading “Reflections”
Father’s Day
I didn’t expect today to be so hard. I knew Mother’s Day was going to be rough, and it really, really was, but I wasn’t expecting today to fill me with so many emotions. The loss of my Mom and the end of my marriage have impacted my family in ways I never expected. ThisContinue reading “Father’s Day”
The Escape
This post is a rough one for me; I had to do a lot of personal reflection and reading my journals. It meant remembering a lot of what I went through not only with my ex, but also some of his family. Since I struggle with PTSD due to the abuse and infidelity I experienced,Continue reading “The Escape”
Free Love for All
I think there’s a misconception about love. I feel that people often think it needs to be earned or won. My ex has told me that he has never felt good enough for me; he has never felt worthy of my love. He has never felt like he had earned it. I think that’s becauseContinue reading “Free Love for All”
God’s Design
Last night I woke at three thirty in the morning drenched in sweat and sobbing. I had a dream where I was once again reliving the pain of his most recent betrayal from a couple weeks ago. When these dreams occur, I can’t tell if it’s happening again or just a dream, it feels soContinue reading “God’s Design”
What Is Love?
After much soul searching this week, I think I’m ready to dig a little deeper. I grew up with a beautiful example of love. My parents shared a 1 Corinthians 13 love. While not perfect, they still taught me to always choose to love with patience and kindness, selflessness and honesty. They taught me thatContinue reading “What Is Love?”
Cognitive Dissonance
When you live your adult life being fed lie after lie after lie, you become numb to it. You learn to just expect it. I realized one day that I no longer believed anything that came out of his mouth. I assumed he never told the truth. If he told me he was going toContinue reading “Cognitive Dissonance”
Finding The Good 