My journey of A lifetime has become my journey of MY lifetime. I have been literally going back through my life and deconstructing the God I grew up with and rebuilding my beliefs with the God I have come to know. I am currently in my cousin’s house in Hot Springs Village. It’s on theContinue reading “Journey of a Lifetime-Part 7”
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2024 out, 2025 in!
2024 went by so fast! It was a hard year with a lot of lessons, a lot of really big changes, and a lot of joy. December of 2023, I said I wanted to make 2024 the year of me. I was going to focus on my needs and learning who I am and unlearningContinue reading “2024 out, 2025 in!”
The Joy of Uncertainty
My youngest son and I recently came back from a vacation to the west coast. We were gone for two weeks visiting San Francisco and then going hiking in some of the National Parks. We went to Yosemite, Redwood, and Crater Lake. We had the most amazing time, and I came back not just refreshed,Continue reading “The Joy of Uncertainty”
Joy or Shame? You can’t have both
Yesterday morning I had an epiphany. I’m sure I’m not the first to realize this, but since it helped me immensely, I want to share it so maybe it can help others who don’t know. If you grew up in church or are now in church, you have most likely learned that sin separates usContinue reading “Joy or Shame? You can’t have both”
Gratitude List
I know I’ve written before about keeping a gratitude list, but I’ve recently changed the way I approach it. I struggle with feeling like the things I am thankful for should be big and important. Like my boys or the fact that I grew up with two wonderful parents. I often forget to be thankfulContinue reading “Gratitude List”
The Search for Truly Living
We live in a world that glorifies immediate gratification, pride, opportunistic behaviors, and perceived perfection. We want a job that makes us a lot of money right out of college. We want our packages tomorrow, or even today. We want to be respected and acknowledged for every good deed or work we have done. WeContinue reading “The Search for Truly Living”
Joy Comes in the Morning
In just two days, my youngest will graduate high school. I don’t know how he went from my baby to a young man so fast. I keep joking that I’m not okay, but it’s true. I am not okay. These past few weeks have been very emotionally draining. There were so many lasts- the lastContinue reading “Joy Comes in the Morning”
I’m Not Okay
Yesterday I got to hear my youngest son play in the District Honors Band. This is his senior year, so it seems like everything he does is the last time. One of the songs was so moving, it had me in tears. Sitting there alone, yet surrounded by so many people, I nearly started sobbing. IContinue reading “I’m Not Okay”
Rest
In my quest for joy, I have discovered how much I long to just rest. I don’t mean that I need a nap or some deep breathing; I need emotional rest. I need the ability to just let go and have someone else be in charge. I am just so tired of always having toContinue reading “Rest”
Sabotaging the Good
In my Celebrate Recovery group, we talked a lot about how working through our issues is like peeling an onion. You peel away one layer and there’s another underneath it to work through. I know that this self-doubt I have that causes my lack of trust is a very big layer for me. I wasn’tContinue reading “Sabotaging the Good”
Finding The Good 