My journey of A lifetime has become my journey of MY lifetime. I have been literally going back through my life and deconstructing the God I grew up with and rebuilding my beliefs with the God I have come to know. I am currently in my cousin’s house in Hot Springs Village. It’s on theContinue reading “Journey of a Lifetime-Part 7”
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Facing Reality
Eleven months ago, I decided to make my fiftieth year, the year of me. It’s been a very eye-opening year, and I’ve had to face some hard truths. I think the biggest one has been that I allowed the man I dated (let’s call him Dan) to manipulate me. For a short time, I wantedContinue reading “Facing Reality”
Perfect Love
It’s been one year since I discovered that the man I was in a relationship with was also dating another woman. One year since I began my trip down a rabbit hole trying to figure out what had happened and what kind of man I had been seeing. One year since I began the journeyContinue reading “Perfect Love”
The Joy of Uncertainty
My youngest son and I recently came back from a vacation to the west coast. We were gone for two weeks visiting San Francisco and then going hiking in some of the National Parks. We went to Yosemite, Redwood, and Crater Lake. We had the most amazing time, and I came back not just refreshed,Continue reading “The Joy of Uncertainty”
Love Me?
Healing from my abuse journey has been long. It’s taken me far longer than I originally thought it would. As I work through each step and heal from it, a deeper level is revealed to me. Through it all has been an undercurrent of what I knew I would always have to get to- myContinue reading “Love Me?”
Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2
I have worked hard and been through a lot of pain and tears to learn these lessons. I have had to let go of a lot of my own control issues and the attachment I had to each partner. I’m still working on the attachment with the most recent one. He was the covert narcissistContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2”
Lessons I’ve Learned Part 1
I went to the Smokey Mountains last weekend. I needed to get away from here and have some space and time to think and spend time with God. I have struggled so much with the realization that I had been the target of a narcissist, two of them. I finally took some time to goContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 1”
It’s me
UPDATE: I wrote this post before I realized that the man I had been dating was actually a covert narcissist. He was cheating on me and extremely emotionally abusive during this time. When I go back and read this, I realize that my body was telling me to run because it knew I was inContinue reading “It’s me”
Sabotaging the Good
In my Celebrate Recovery group, we talked a lot about how working through our issues is like peeling an onion. You peel away one layer and there’s another underneath it to work through. I know that this self-doubt I have that causes my lack of trust is a very big layer for me. I wasn’tContinue reading “Sabotaging the Good”
Finding The Good 