I have worked hard and been through a lot of pain and tears to learn these lessons. I have had to let go of a lot of my own control issues and the attachment I had to each partner. I’m still working on the attachment with the most recent one. He was the covert narcissistContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2”
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Healing 2.0
As I sit here doing my favorite fall Sunday activity (watching my Cowboys play), I have been struggling. These past weeks have involved a lot of unpacking the baggage in my life, some baggage I didn’t even realize I had until the ending of my recent relationship. I did so much work after my ex’sContinue reading “Healing 2.0”
It’s me
UPDATE: I wrote this post before I realized that the man I had been dating was actually a covert narcissist. He was cheating on me and extremely emotionally abusive during this time. When I go back and read this, I realize that my body was telling me to run because it knew I was inContinue reading “It’s me”
My Redemption Story
Since 2015, my story has been one of emotional abuse, cheating, physical intimidation, lies, manipulation, criticism, divorce- it’s been a long list. But that is not my story. My story is not what I went through. My story is not who I was. My story is who I am now and who I will be. Continue reading “My Redemption Story”
Joy Comes in the Morning
In just two days, my youngest will graduate high school. I don’t know how he went from my baby to a young man so fast. I keep joking that I’m not okay, but it’s true. I am not okay. These past few weeks have been very emotionally draining. There were so many lasts- the lastContinue reading “Joy Comes in the Morning”
2023
Finding joy and peace in my life has thus far been a balancing act of learning about and meeting my needs and still giving to, sharing with, and loving others. It’s been about finding that balance of having boundaries and still remembering that it’s my job as a child of God to show others grace and mercyContinue reading “2023”
Letting Go
In just one week, I will have been divorced for a year. It’s been an exceptionally hard year and a really great one. I don’t know how both those statements can be true, but they are. I’ve had to let go of so much this past year- my desire to keep my family intact, theContinue reading “Letting Go”
Ordinary vs Extraordinary
I’ve said on here before that I wasn’t looking for an ordinary life. I didn’t want what everyone else had, I wanted what God desired for me. That extraordinary life that is meant for me, with joy and peace and true love. The life that God desires for us all but can only be foundContinue reading “Ordinary vs Extraordinary”
The Value of Friendship
I lost friends when my husband had an affair. I lose a few more when I divorced him. The pain of losing people I thought would be my support, hurt nearly as bad as the pain of my husband’s betrayal. I was angry and hurt by them pulling away when I needed them most. IContinue reading “The Value of Friendship”
Goodness of God
I sang this song at my mom’s funeral. It took me a while to really understand the words to this song. I know that my mom believed God was good through everything that happened, but I had doubts for a few years. How could any of the things I went through ever be made good?Continue reading “Goodness of God”
Finding The Good 