Healing from my abuse journey has been long. It’s taken me far longer than I originally thought it would. As I work through each step and heal from it, a deeper level is revealed to me. Through it all has been an undercurrent of what I knew I would always have to get to- myContinue reading “Love Me?”
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Fortitude
I beat myself up for a bit about being fooled again by a man who was manipulating me. It was the realization that I once again put my trust in someone who was just lying to me that made me so angry at myself. I really thought I had worked through the biggest bulk ofContinue reading “Fortitude”
New Lesson Unlocked!
I went out with some friends last night to a Journey tribute band concert. We had such a great time singing along to every song. After the concert, we stopped at a club to listen to another band. I had a very eye-opening experience there. We had a couple men come up to us, offerContinue reading “New Lesson Unlocked!”
Identifying Emotions
I have been hard-pressed fo find a name for how I feel about what I went through in this last relationship. I had been using the word sad, but that didn’t feel quite right. Angry yes, but I know anger is just a broad word we use for many emotions. Angry by itself just didn’tContinue reading “Identifying Emotions”
Fifty
Tomorrow is my fiftieth birthday. I don’t know how it got here so fast. There were supposed to be big plans, a trip, but all that fell apart. My friends got busy, my relationship ended, and I discovered he’s a narcissist. Definitely not the birthday I had thought it would be. Even with the disappointments,Continue reading “Fifty”
Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2
I have worked hard and been through a lot of pain and tears to learn these lessons. I have had to let go of a lot of my own control issues and the attachment I had to each partner. I’m still working on the attachment with the most recent one. He was the covert narcissistContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2”
Lessons I’ve Learned Part 1
I went to the Smokey Mountains last weekend. I needed to get away from here and have some space and time to think and spend time with God. I have struggled so much with the realization that I had been the target of a narcissist, two of them. I finally took some time to goContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 1”
Healing 2.0
As I sit here doing my favorite fall Sunday activity (watching my Cowboys play), I have been struggling. These past weeks have involved a lot of unpacking the baggage in my life, some baggage I didn’t even realize I had until the ending of my recent relationship. I did so much work after my ex’sContinue reading “Healing 2.0”
My Redemption Story
Since 2015, my story has been one of emotional abuse, cheating, physical intimidation, lies, manipulation, criticism, divorce- it’s been a long list. But that is not my story. My story is not what I went through. My story is not who I was. My story is who I am now and who I will be. Continue reading “My Redemption Story”
Joy Comes in the Morning
In just two days, my youngest will graduate high school. I don’t know how he went from my baby to a young man so fast. I keep joking that I’m not okay, but it’s true. I am not okay. These past few weeks have been very emotionally draining. There were so many lasts- the lastContinue reading “Joy Comes in the Morning”
Finding The Good 