Lately I’ve been so incredibly emotional. It’s like it’s finally sunk in that I am free of all the control, abuse, and manipulation. I’m not having to be a grown man’s mother, therapist, and maid. I don’t have to listen to a grown man complain, whine, or berate me over some perceived grievance. I don’tContinue reading “I’m Free”
Category Archives: Faith
To Be Seen
“There is an epidemic of not being seen….It’s more and more difficult to stand out. It’s more and more difficult to be special, more and more difficult to be unique. We are not seen.” ~Sam Vaknin We live in world of so many lost people who are not being seen. I know many women whoContinue reading “To Be Seen”
On Second Thought…
I’ve been thinking about what I wrote in my last post. I think that it’s not that I didn’t love myself, but maybe something much deeper. Before I met my now ex husband, I was very happy, independent, and genuinely looking forward to following my dreams and making the most of my life. I wasContinue reading “On Second Thought…”
Love Me?
Healing from my abuse journey has been long. It’s taken me far longer than I originally thought it would. As I work through each step and heal from it, a deeper level is revealed to me. Through it all has been an undercurrent of what I knew I would always have to get to- myContinue reading “Love Me?”
Fortitude
I beat myself up for a bit about being fooled again by a man who was manipulating me. It was the realization that I once again put my trust in someone who was just lying to me that made me so angry at myself. I really thought I had worked through the biggest bulk ofContinue reading “Fortitude”
New Lesson Unlocked!
I went out with some friends last night to a Journey tribute band concert. We had such a great time singing along to every song. After the concert, we stopped at a club to listen to another band. I had a very eye-opening experience there. We had a couple men come up to us, offerContinue reading “New Lesson Unlocked!”
Identifying Emotions
I have been hard-pressed fo find a name for how I feel about what I went through in this last relationship. I had been using the word sad, but that didn’t feel quite right. Angry yes, but I know anger is just a broad word we use for many emotions. Angry by itself just didn’tContinue reading “Identifying Emotions”
Fifty
Tomorrow is my fiftieth birthday. I don’t know how it got here so fast. There were supposed to be big plans, a trip, but all that fell apart. My friends got busy, my relationship ended, and I discovered he’s a narcissist. Definitely not the birthday I had thought it would be. Even with the disappointments,Continue reading “Fifty”
Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2
I have worked hard and been through a lot of pain and tears to learn these lessons. I have had to let go of a lot of my own control issues and the attachment I had to each partner. I’m still working on the attachment with the most recent one. He was the covert narcissistContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 2”
Lessons I’ve Learned Part 1
I went to the Smokey Mountains last weekend. I needed to get away from here and have some space and time to think and spend time with God. I have struggled so much with the realization that I had been the target of a narcissist, two of them. I finally took some time to goContinue reading “Lessons I’ve Learned Part 1”
Finding The Good 