I think there’s a misconception about love. I feel that people often think it needs to be earned or won. My ex has told me that he has never felt good enough for me; he has never felt worthy of my love. He has never felt like he had earned it. I think that’s becauseContinue reading “Free Love for All”
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Nice or Kind?
I’ve learned over the past few years that there’s a huge difference between being nice and being kind. Cruel people can have moments of niceness, but kindness is a character trait. Kind people are nice even when they don’t want to be, even when it doesn’t benefit them. Nice people are nice with purpose, theyContinue reading “Nice or Kind?”
Choosing Wrong
I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. Romans 7:19 I have often felt that my abuser doesn’t want to be the way he is. I know the man I married, the one who told me his dreams about who heContinue reading “Choosing Wrong”
No Joy Without Pain
Strangely enough, Grey’s Anatomy spoke some truth to me today. Most of us have heard the saying, “Hurt people hurt people,” but have we ever really delved deep into that statement? What does it really mean and in what ways do we hurt others? “Sometimes traumatized people lie. They lie to you; they lie toContinue reading “No Joy Without Pain”
Living a Lie
Have you ever been repeatedly asked the same question? You answer it and the person just keeps asking it the next day or the next week? You give the same answer over and over again and they just keep asking. Or maybe you’re the person who keeps asking. Do you ask a question and feelContinue reading “Living a Lie”
Desire and the Enemy
I desired desperately to keep my family together. I wanted the fifty-year anniversary, to be the sweet old couple holding hands, to celebrate holidays, graduations, and weddings together, and fill our home with kids, their spouses, and our grandchildren. I wanted us to the be favorite grandparents that the grandchildren always wanted to go see.Continue reading “Desire and the Enemy”
Fear is a Liar
“Faith is a place of mystery, where we find the courage to believe in what we cannot see and the strength to let go of our fear of uncertainty.” -Brene Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection I lived in fear for many years after his affair. I was so scared I was going to lose everything,Continue reading “Fear is a Liar”
My Own Lament
He is so much fun to be around. He’s funny, engaging, and the life of the party. He’s very touchy when he’s with me, always has a hand on my back, my neck, my leg. He’s sweet and so charming and says all the right things, how beautiful I am, how he loves to touchContinue reading “My Own Lament”
More on Lament
People love to give advice, especially to those who are hurting. We’ve all heard it, pull yourself up by your bootstraps and keep going; just start a new chapter in life; keep moving forward; and my least favorite, don’t live life with regrets. But is this Biblical? Is just moving on and forgetting what weContinue reading “More on Lament”
God’s Design
Last night I woke at three thirty in the morning drenched in sweat and sobbing. I had a dream where I was once again reliving the pain of his most recent betrayal from a couple weeks ago. When these dreams occur, I can’t tell if it’s happening again or just a dream, it feels soContinue reading “God’s Design”
Finding The Good 