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Goodness of God

I sang this song at my mom’s funeral. It took me a while to really understand the words to this song. I know that my mom believed God was good through everything that happened, but I had doubts for a few years. How could any of the things I went through ever be made good?Continue reading “Goodness of God”

Love and Respect

I’ve learned a lot this past year- about myself and relationships. I’ve always known that I desired a relationship like my parents had. One of mutual love and respect for themselves and each other. They made choices that were what was best for their marriage and ignored the standards that society set for marriage andContinue reading “Love and Respect”

God’s Timing

We often hear that things happen in God’s time and not ours. I honestly have never fully understood that until recently. It’s only been within the past three months or so that I have truly been able to walk away from my ex. We have known each other for over twenty-five years and were aContinue reading “God’s Timing”

Reflections

“Time heals all wounds.” That can be true, but it depends on what we do with that time. If we just sit in our hurts, they don’t heal. We have to commit to actions that promote healing. In my case, I needed space to think and work on myself. I needed to see where IContinue reading “Reflections”

Father’s Day

I didn’t expect today to be so hard. I knew Mother’s Day was going to be rough, and it really, really was, but I wasn’t expecting today to fill me with so many emotions. The loss of my Mom and the end of my marriage have impacted my family in ways I never expected. ThisContinue reading “Father’s Day”

Being Still

The above verse spoke deeply to me today. The “be still” part really got to me. I can’t remember the last time I was still and just let God handle everything. What does it even mean to be still? In Exodus 14, the Israelites are being chased by the Egyptians to be captured and broughtContinue reading “Being Still”

The Escape

This post is a rough one for me; I had to do a lot of personal reflection and reading my journals. It meant remembering a lot of what I went through not only with my ex, but also some of his family. Since I struggle with PTSD due to the abuse and infidelity I experienced,Continue reading “The Escape”

Vent

I have been feeling overwhelmed with stress lately. It seems like the very someone who had once promised to take care of me forever is working hard to repeatedly hurt me instead. Then yesterday, I had someone remind me that he is my ex and that alone should bring me less stress! I am lettingContinue reading “Vent”

Prayer

This post is more a cry for help than anything else. I’m exhausted, worn out, and just plain cannot handle another thing being thrown at me. I feel like I am being attacked on all sides and I just can’t take anymore. I know my fight is not with man, it is Satan attacking meContinue reading “Prayer”

Mama

I really miss my Mama tonight. I haven’t talked much about her on here because it’s honestly too hard. I wish I could talk to her about everything going on. I wish she was here to hold me while I cry and to be angry with me at everything my boys and I have goneContinue reading “Mama”